Last week was overwhelming to say the least. I have discovered life is full of choices... but nevermind 3 monumental choices at once. Without being too detailed, I was at a crossroads that had three forks in the road. One fork led to opportunity, one to a lifelong dream, and the third to the unknown and unfamiliar. All very enticing roads, all backed with support, but not one with support from the same person. To described my feelings, I felt like one of those stretchy sticky people that you buy in the $.25 machines (hopefully you know what I mean). Lately, I have been busy enough to preoccupy my thoughts and time with something besides these choices. Then one night, everything but my mind stopped running... and boy did it run. Every possibility came up, it was a synaptic firing battlefield. I was overwhelmed. So I did the only thing I know how to do at a time like this... I prayed. I poured out my heart in a final plea for help. No I did not get the answer I was expecting, and no the solution was not clear. But I now recognize this as a tender mercy, that the lord allowed my faith to be pushed a little further. My institute teacher, knowing through the spirit the exact words I needed described it this way in a story about his son:
" Dad, this is really really hard work. (in reference to his homework). I look back at his face, tears running down... and said, " I know son, but don't worry it gets harder!". Son, confused and bewildered, "what?". "It only gets harder son, but thats ok, because heavenly father gives you a greater ability to bear it"
So, Yes it was hard, but that's ok, because IT GETS HARDER! :) So what's the solution you ask?... My route was determined by the lord, this last Wednesday, I received a call to meet with my old Stake President... I thought to myself, that's a little weird, I am not exactly in that stake anymore. Then I was told that he is the Priesthood leader for the USU campus... which could mean one thing, institute. So, hears the "harder" part, I have been called as the LDSSA activities VP. A weight was lifted by knowing exactly what the lord has called me to do this coming year, while a different weight has been added by being called and set apart to do this work. No it won't be easy, and no I probably don't know what I am getting myself into, but I do know that I feel a great peace and responsibility, and for that, I am grateful. Grateful to be entrusted with this call, and grateful to know that my Father in Heaven loves his daughter and it constantly mindful of me... little, college student, me!
